tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2432734053115127369.post1890024596506317257..comments2023-07-05T03:28:27.772-07:00Comments on Shalom, Dena: Two and a half months later ...Denahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05100904350829701234noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2432734053115127369.post-92136631465709646152010-09-18T22:16:16.299-07:002010-09-18T22:16:16.299-07:00(((Cheryl)))
When I think back, to how we met, an...(((Cheryl)))<br /><br />When I think back, to how we met, and the uncanny synchronicities, the timing of your pain, your journey, being played out ... and then experiencing my own journey, which has all-too-painfully mirrored yours -- well, my heart just gasps.<br /><br />So very much has been orchestrated ... <br /><br />THANK you for the phone call today, for hearing my heart, for understanding, empathizing, honoring me ... I can't tell you how much that meant/means to me! You put your own pain aside, to receive mine ... a priceless gift.<br /><br />Few have allowed me the critical "luxury" (actually a necessity), to spill out my heart ... to share my pain, openly, uncensored. You opened your ears, arms, and heart, to enable me to do just that. <br /><br />I hear you, I receive your words ... I know they come from a place of knowing precisely what I'm going through ... not just words, but profound awareness of the depth of confusing-heartbreak, of transformation ... of wondering how to go forward with life.<br /><br />This article, shared by a friend, speaks of what I'm seeing at this time: http://fionabeck.com/?p=554<br /><br />My focus, at this point in my life, is to heal ... as you stated, some days, that means getting the sleep I need, taking care of my body, staying clear of additional stress. Some days, it's all I can do to get a shower. Other days, I plunge into deep healing work ... whether the Reiki training, or energy healing work (& I do mean *work*!), or writing out of the depths of my heart. <br /><br />If for no other reason, this has happened to me to take stock of my life ... and to discover who I am, and why I'm here ... and to go all out for wholeness.<br /><br />I'm open to experiencing deep love again, and joy ... and yeah, to being that person who can light up a room.<br /><br />I miss her.Denahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05100904350829701234noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2432734053115127369.post-43780088788512785102010-09-18T21:52:38.016-07:002010-09-18T21:52:38.016-07:00Dena, I hear a lot of this today but it's been...Dena, I hear a lot of this today but it's been good to catch up a little more by reading your recent posts, too. <br /><br />I think there a just a couple simple things I MUST say.<br /><br />One, there is NO PAIN that is illegitimate. None. Pain is very simply PAIN. Not everyone can see this when they are in judgment/polarization/tree of the knowledge of good and evil mode. I have experienced some similar responses in recent months and it is so lonely to feel that there is almost no one who can truly empathize with me in my pain. Most see my pain as "what I get" for fucking up. This is simply not the case. Dena, you must hear this: your pain matters. It is precious. It deserves to be invited up on a gentle, loving, trustworthy lap and held tightly until it feels comfort. It deserves to be acknowledged, validated and empathized with, irregardless of the why or how it came about. It is here. It is felt. NOT meeting you in your pain with loving arms does nothing but exacerbate your pain, even though there are those who would feel that turning away at the point of your pain will drive home the lesson they would have you learn. Try (I KNOW it's hard) to let those roll off your back like water off a duck. But let the comfort and love of those who unconditionally care about you go in deep, deep, deep. Let it soak in, get all over you. :)<br /><br />Second, you are so bright. That is an odd word to choose. But I don't know another that fits so well as that...bright...like a light. Even in pain you are magnificent. Beautiful. Your spirit reaches for truth, understanding and the altering that happens when one goes through pain. I know you have dark days. I know. But your spirit is so bright. I have never met you in person but you must just light up whole rooms you walk into! <br /><br />Third, that counsel to "just breathe" is so perfect. I had a friend tell me in the middle of my pain that I needed to just ask myself if I wanted to do such and such, and if I didn't, I shouldn't. It seems selfish and too simple, but it helped me move through days and weeks and months of pain into a much better place. Sometimes grief can make you feel you have no power. You are keenly aware of the way your body shuts down on you, your mind dulls, your emotions seem too much or too little but never balanced and only sleep is a comfort. Simple tasks are overwhelming. This causes a grown-up to feel like a powerless child. I think you must know the feeling I'm talking about. Just breathing and just walking one step at a time and letting yourself choose that next step will find you, before you know it, walking without thinking. I promise.<br /><br />Lastly, I promise there will be a day, and it will be sooner than you fear, when you will not feel this pain. You will always feel a little corner of it, I think. Pain changes us. People change us. But the sharpness of the pain will subside. The sickening weight inside will lift. You will come out on the other side. I promise. <br /><br />Sending love and hugs to you, Dena.Cheryl Ensom Dackhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04345938945440377236noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2432734053115127369.post-74671432704063991362010-09-13T22:37:25.203-07:002010-09-13T22:37:25.203-07:00Thank you both, Marianne and Chad ... looks like I...Thank you both, Marianne and Chad ... looks like I didn't lose *all* of my friends, huh?<br /><br />The hope is an uncanny thing ... it's borne out of my inner-awareness that I am here for a reason, a purpose -- even a profound one. And that I'm not done. Not by a long-shot. In fact, I've only just begun ... to live.<br /><br />I got awakened -- shaken out of the comfort of my conventional life ... and I'm being prepared for something ... dunno exactly what yet -- beyond that it will manifest in healing -- for myself, and for others.<br /><br />I have much to learn ... about how I cannot receive from externals, until I first connect with internals ... and THEN, from a position of wholeness, I can share that ... <br /><br />I'm eager to learn ... the pain is not from love - the pain is an invitation to be enlarged by this love ... it's the catalyst for the intense growth I need to go through. <br /><br />It sure got my attention ... ready or not, here I go!Denanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2432734053115127369.post-26165789807111227442010-09-13T13:14:21.047-07:002010-09-13T13:14:21.047-07:00Dena,
I am so sorry to hear about the pain you ar...Dena,<br /><br />I am so sorry to hear about the pain you are experiencing. I'm delighted to hear your hope in the midst of it. <br /><br />I am honored that you are my friend.<br /><br />ChadChad Esteshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17823303411317205386noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2432734053115127369.post-26886423825661161802010-09-13T02:53:29.572-07:002010-09-13T02:53:29.572-07:00It is good to hear that your are experiencing a gl...It is good to hear that your are experiencing a glimmer of hope, Dena. Wishing you all the best.mariannehttp://www.marianneclyde.comnoreply@blogger.com