That keeps happening.
This is your brain.
This is your brain in grief.
[envision a big, blank screen]
So, I skedaddled my way there ... and, en route, I noticed a formerly closed building in town, sporting a sign that read, "Dallas Health and Vitality Center" ... including yoga and massage.
Perhaps, perchance ... Reiki...?
So, I stopped there afterwards, even though it's not yet open, and rang the bell, even though it appeared that no one was there ... a woman appeared, a woman who isn't supposed to be there, and doesn't usually answer the door, except that she was and she did ... and within 5 minutes we realized that we have much in common (including a penchant for Abraham-Hicks, alternative healing modalities, art, life experience, and a need for new connections -- particularly in this uber-conservative/religious little town).
Bottom line -- we will explore this connection, and see what may come of it ... perhaps including Reiki, and helping to paint the place into a gloriously magical fantasy-land. Meanwhile, I'm showing up tonight for an impromptu yoga class -- something I've been wanting to do.
And THAT follows the many messages that came my way this morning, which I shall now share:
“Old things are passed away; behold all things are become new.”
I accept the gifts of change.
I let go of the old year and look forward to the new with an open heart!
I seek to love more, to learn more to share more and to shine my unique light into the world in service.
Guide me in the direction where my “divine” abilities will be best used for good.
I am available to You, use me Source of All!
Very timely for me ... yes, I let go of what was, and accept what is ... and eagerly anticipate whatEVER is to come ...!
(even as I acknowledge that I am grieving, and that grief must run its course ...)
"When you do not question what will be,
you allow yourself to be present with All That Is."
Hmmm... I'm a-sensing a theme here...!
Look deeply inside a rose. See the center of the rose and the beauty that lives within. Inside your center is a similar beauty. The Tao is eternal and it is inside each and everyone of you.
Is you understand that the Tao is inside everyone, how can you discriminate? If you understand that the Tao is eternal and everywhere, how would you lead? What kind of leader would you bill? Will you recognize everyone as yourself. How long will it take you to know this? Only one moment, once you find the Tao.
Inside MY center is a similar beauty ... and THAT is what I am focused on discovering, realizing, and living-from ...!
"One learns to accept the fact that no permanent return is possible to an old form of relationship; and, more deeply still, that there is no holding of a relationship to a single form. This is not tragedy but part of the ever-recurrent miracle of life and growth. All living relationships are in process of change, of expansion, and must perpetually be building themselves new forms...Because it is not lasting, let us not fall into the cynic's trap and call it an illusion. Duration is not a test of true or false...." ~ Anne Morrow Lindbergh, from Gift from the Sea
Yes!!! ALL relationships are in process of change...! I welcome that. To refuse to change is to die. I am here to LIVE! to THRIVE! To discover who I Really Am, and to live that fully. And no, I will most certainly NOT call what I've experienced, enjoyed, and found enthralling to be an "illusion." I know better.
On this day of your life, Dena, I believe God wants you to know...
..that when we do the best we can, we never know what miracle is wrought in our life, or in the life of another.
Helen Keller said that, and she was right. There is a situation in your life right now where you are being asked to do your best, your very best. Maybe it is in finding forgiveness for another. Or is understanding something that you just haven't been able to understand. Or in accepting what has to this point felt unacceptable.
Whatever that situation (and you know exactly what it is right now)...are you doing the best that you can? If you are, so be it, and good. Yet if you think you might do better, allow this little nudge today to be your gift from the soul. A miracle awaits if you will reach back now and do your very, very, very best in this.
Yes -- I can attest that I AM indeed doing the very best I can, in this situation that I am wanting to understand ... and in accepting what has felt unacceptable. But, I'm willing to do my very, very, VERY best. This shall NOT be wasted ... I WILL learn, and I WILL expand. I AM open to all that is good, beautiful and HAPPY coming into my life ...!
Ordinary activities will be a bit trickier than usual, leaving you with only one choice: improvise. Stop obsessing about what seems to be a lack of options. Focus on the most bizarre, outrageous solution possible -- it could very well end up being the right one.
The way you usually do things just won't work now. Your only option is to think of something new -- which won't be a problem
Even if you've always worked a certain way, you'll need to rethink that now. Try what you've only dared to think of before. Bet it works -- and gets you noticed, too.
Ok then ... I shall focus upon the bizarre and the outrageous ... the new ... and that which I've only dared to consider before...! Fastening my seat-belt ...
You know those people, Dena, you sometimes feel you're waiting for? I mean new friends and connections, agents and directors, customers and clients, publishers and producers, dear hearts and darlings. Well, they're actually just waiting for you... to make some serious room for them in your life.
Do stuff, Dena, little stuff, lots of stuff, prepare the way... and don't even think of stopping until you're dining with them at The Ritz.
P.S. "Room Service? Hi. It's me again, Dena Brehm. That's right, in the Penthouse Suite. If you wouldn't mind, could we please have another round of desserts, some more wood on the fire, and, uh, some new springs for the trampoline?"
OK, made me laugh, and even snort...! Especially the trampoline-part. Yeah, I'm doing stuff ... all manner of stuff. As I'm led. Trusting as I go.
I WILL get clarity ... my life WILL unfold for me.
I will *KNOW* ...!
Shalom (& Namaste) ~